Showing posts with label STH. Show all posts
Showing posts with label STH. Show all posts

Monday, December 15, 2008

Track 17

I think the cheesecake froze well?
Just checked it out, it has the soft texture but steady.
Haven't cut out and experiment one yet though.
I'll experiment one when Lisa comes over.

I couldn't sleep last night, having some kinda insomnia.
Maybe i couldn't sleep because of the show i watched earlier on.

I was reading El's blog, and it inspires me.
Its a brutal truth about the world.

You can't depend on no one, but yourself.
If you did something wrong, and you're determine to change, you're not doing it for others but yourself.
If you won an award for something, its not because of someone, those someone just inspired you. Its because of yourself. You work hard for it.
No matter what you do, wrong or right, you do it for yourself not anyone else.
If you choose to die because of someone, its not really because of that someone now is it?
You have the final decision, you get to choose die or not.
If you smoke, you can't say your friends influence you to do so, you got the choice. YOU CAN CHOOSE.

You see, no matter what you do, how you act, its what you've become, yourself. People might have inspired or influenced, but its you who get the choice. You can't seriously blame yourself eventhough someone said its your fault, its mostly theirs because they can choose. You can't blame anyone for anything thats happened to you, you could have make a difference, in fact everyone can make a difference on their own, if they are strong and have a strong will to either stay or change.

Wow, i'm like having the Obama moment for a second right there.
Haha.
Of course, everything depends on situation. Compromise everyone.


Oh yeah, brainwashing is happening lately.
Haha! :D

Talking about brain, Grey's Anatomy never fail to make me gasps or say OH MY GOD.
Yesterday's episode, they showed the a guy's eye poked by a pencil, looks funny at first, then his artery broke and his brain expand, can see from the skull and then into a coma. SERIOUS, DISGUSTING.

I'm not sure where am i now, but i think i've got 5/6 more episodes to cry on.

And Michelle is back in Malaysia already.

And my friendster is dead. Not bothering it.

Lying is never a good thing, especially if the liar is a horrible one -.-
I learned that the hard way.
My mother, i was screaming my head off(in my mind) last night. But you know something, despite all her straight rules, i guess sometimes its a good thing for me. Because i always have to learn it the hard way.


Some guy: Hi i'm Sky, whats your name?
Me: Hi i'm Grass -.-

What kind of name is Sky?
I can assure 99% of the parents wouldn't name their kid Sky -.-
So why can't you pick a better, proper name.


My cheesecake taste awesome! X)
A little bit too soft, when i cut it out it was like blueh, lembik. And the crust was super stiff.
So super soft + super stiff = looks awful
But it does taste good still :D
I guess we went overboard with the ingredients because we put more than we're supposed to and also w added some other things. HAHA. Its purely edible don't worry.

Lisa came and we watched erm, two movies!
And we talked and talked and talked.
I had fun :D
Its been awhile since we berbonding.

Anyway, how am i suppose to explain this situation. This love triangle.

A guy who has loved her since childhood and continued loving her eventhough he thought she was dead. And he did wanted to donate his eye but of course, NOT POSSIBLE!
And a guy who loved her since pretty young too but was her step brother and was with her through thick and thin and gives her everything in the world, including killing himself to donate his eyeballs.
Yes, this is the typical sad love story. But i love how they fit their earlier childhood days in the beginning of the episode, because when i watch all the pain and agony, i remember them when they were younger. And its heartbreaking. And yes, leading lady dies. But aha, not so easy! She lost her vision and struggle to live on while pretending to others that she is fine. That is sad.

And i am telling you, from episode 16 onwards, those tears just keep on rolling, i've never been this emotional lately.
And wow, watching the part where they reveal those bitches, after that adding the art she getting married. It was omg, sad. So sad. And one thing good about Korean shows, they don't just end the series with marriage, then few years late die like A Walk To Remember, they somehow shows how she died, SAD.

I made a conclusion, i know who suffered the worst! It wasn't the girl who lost her memory, lost her sight and get cancer and die.
It wasn't the guy who loved his sister and suffered so much and donate his eyes and die.
It was the guy who lost her not once, not twice but three times! The one who loved her since young, the one who went through all he trouble into marrying her(though after the wedding he seriously didn't look very happy anymore and looks troubled), the only remaining one who lived and witnessed it all. That sucked big time for him.

AND WOAH, FINAL EPISODE, IT WAS CLEARING! As in my tear ducts :D

And Gerald introduced a new korean series for me, he say its so sad he almost cried.
Well, it me be damn good!!!!

1 Litres of Tears.
Its based on a true story, so, it has got to be good(;

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Track 16

9 down, 11 more to go(;
Yes, cry my heart out! Its good for the soul but bad for the eyes.

I had a sister bonding time today.
We made cheesecake together, although it was rather chaotic because i bought some wrong ingredients, but oh well, we did our best :D

Just not in the mood (or have to opportunity) to socialize with anyone.

Watch THS:Britney Spears.
Makes you realize to appreciate life more.

Heartbreaking love triangle.
The girl keeps being 'swapt' by the guys, like she's some kind of gift that have to be passed around.
But, in this story, i don't know who is the worst of all among three of them.
Because the two guys and the girl, all three, sad story!


Ahh, yes. I'm very not in the mood for anything whatsoever.
And especially at times like this my mom wouldn't shut up.
JUST SHUT UP! I HATE YOU TODAY.
YOU'RE DRIVING ME NUTS AND I AM JUST SO PISSED.
JUST BUTT OUT OF MY THINGS, LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE MY THINGS ALONE. AND LEAVE MY PROBLEMS ALONE.
I think bold-ing, making it larger with red colour would make it clear enough.



DAMN, if that bitch screams UPPA one more time, i am gonna kill that director or writer.


Random topic.


Wanna know something, if i were given a chance to cure either cancer or HIV/AIDS, i would definitely go and find the cure for cancer.
For i think people with cancer deserves to live more, sure this decision is kinda influenced by the dramas i watched where the leading actress most time gets cancer and die.

But think of it this way, people who have AIDS, not saying all so please don't judge me.
They mostly did things, like taking drugs, sharing needles or having multiple sex partners, what they did, is their fault, their doings. They had the chance to change it all, they could stop it but no, they still do it and when they realize they get it, only they regret it.

But people who have cancer, they just inherit it sometimes or it happens suddenly. Except for smokers who get lung cancer. -.- I know i'm being mean but hey don't judge me, i've just voicing out an opinion. Everyone has their own. Cancer patients didn't have much chance to live. Rarely one could have a long life span or to even stay alive for long. Like my dad who was diagnosed with intestine cancer, didn't even last for 2 years!
Okay, i should stop talking about this before i get a bullet into my brain.

At least there is one good news.
Big Dumb Dumb is back! Though i'm not suppose to tell anyone (:
And you thought once this game was fun, well, its not that fun anymore isn't it?


Friday, December 12, 2008

Track 14

No matter how I wait I cant go
next to you, crying
You only gave me pain and you didnt know me
Are you telling me to leave?

Kim Bum Soo

And so, i got ready to go bazaar today.
Su Qi's dad picked me up at 9.30am.
We could have went there early, but May Wen was stalling and we end up going at 11am.

People there are cold. Boo hoo. NEVERMIND!

Before leaving the house, mama was having her PMS.
She screwed me for using my HTC -.- asked me to use my motorola. FINE, i go change.
Then Su Qi's dad came, of course hurry down lah, people waiting don't tell me still wanna lengang here and there meh, she scold me why i run so fast -.-
What theee....

I had a fun time chit chatting with Pornstar and May Wen :D

Then went to Subang!!! :D
But as usual, like last year's bazaar, didn't help out much.
Had lunch at Uncle Lim's wit May Wen and Su Qi, blueh, should have waited a bit longer.
Then Su Qi and Pui Cheng had Nando's, so me and May Wen went to. And had ice cream(:
I ran out of credit.
Anyway, my mom send me a message, Take care right after i told her i reach already.
0.0 TAKE CARE?
REALLY? XD

Anyway, then went to Manhattan something fish, i don't remember the name X)
Saw Nicholas Chiew, JACK, Jun Yew, SWEN, Mei Yi. Please forgive me if i don't remember anymore names(:
I MISS JACK!!! :D :D :D
And we look alike? REALLY? (;

Anyway, got home early because sis finish class.
Got home and did my report that i abandoned.
And started with my 3 month report!
I AM DONE :D

I'm feeling so down.
People are either ignoring me, or avoiding me.
And lately, treating me like i'm invisible.
I hope to think i'm slim thats why people can't see me -.-
Yeah dream on Celine!

Seriously, people are avoiding me or thinking i'm transparent lah.
And i got the perfect term and opportunity to use it, 'SIK POH LEI DAI'.
Look at the bright side, now at least when i stand in front of them i won't be bothering them! -.-
Ha-ha-ha.

I better go watch youtube.

And one of my top actor and actress.

Choi Ji-woo

And

Kwon Sang-woo

Both of them are damn good at crying.
Made me cry, prepare a box of tissue for every episode.



And once again, even watching this video made me teared!
Ahh, you people won't till you get the story(;

Quotes:

People who love each other end up reuniting. No matter how far apart they are, they will reunite in the end. Love is something that returns!

Perhaps he may have loved her more than I did. However, this does not mean that I loved her any less.


Aaww aaw aawww(:
However, quotes like that is only true in TV shows and movies kids(;

Chopin Concerto Op. 11 E-minor by Heinrich Neuhaus
Bo Go Ship Da (I Miss You) by Kim Bum Soo
Stairway To Heaven by Led Zeppelin (I personally love the piano version)
If You Seek Amy by Britney Spears
My Baby by Britney Spears
Circus by Britney Spears
I Don't Care by Fall Out Boy